Posttraumatic Stress Disorder

[jlg_shes]

I need any tips anyone has on how they got pregnant. Duh, I know that was dumb. Ok anyone that took awhile of trying....help me out. I have tried to calculate my ovulation, but nothing. I had a baby when I was 18, and she was adopted to a better life than I could have provided then...about 8 years ago, I became pregnant after dating a guy for a month...I am ashamed of this, but I had an abortion. I didn't want to have a life and a child with that particular man.. It is now 8 years later, I have found the man of my dreams, an excellent mother in law -to be, and month after month, I figure and figure and try and try, and then hope and hope, and then my period comes and I get more and more depressed. My fiance is 6.8 years younger than me, and I hope I can give him children but its looking slim. We've been trying a year now. Can anyone give me a minute of their time and some helpful advice or hope?
Jamie