Posttraumatic Stress Disorder

[free]

Today marks one year since my ex husband and I separated. He was physically, emotionally, mentally,and sexually abusive towards me. The past few weeks I have had an increase in flashbacks but since we separated a year ago I have felt like I want to keep more to myself, I don't like to be around a lot of people, going out into public makes me nervous, and I don't have as much interest in the daily activities I once enjoyed. I still get visions of a gun being pointed at my face and it going off. I work full time and I am able to put up a huge front so that others cannot tell what I feel on the inside. I feel like I am crumbling within and no one cares. My parens will not even let me talk about my feelings with them anymore. They told me that it is over with and to move on, which is easier said then done. With my work schedule there is no time to go to counselling and getting time off of work is very hard. I am afraid that I have developed ptsd but I certainly don't want to lable myself. I am at a point where I don't know what to do and I feel so confused. I could use some advice or at least know that there is someone out there who can relate to how I am feeling.

[missd]

The sooner you address PTSD the better chance you have for recovery. If you think you may have it, see a therapist right away. The longer you ignore PTSD the more it becomes an intricate part of who you are. If you don't have it, no harm done. It still sounds like you need to see a therapist to resolve many issues which may prevent full blown PTSD which can eventually completely debilitate and disable you. Get help. If you can't afford it, talk to a minister, or someone that will help you...perhaps a battered woman's shelter.